15 signs to know you are going crazy

1. You go about trying to make friends with a cat.
2. When the cat ignores you, you start cursing her and when she paws at you …you paw back.
3. You sit on the veranda and calculate the exact amount of time taken by a cow to eat its breakfast.
4. You start calculating the no. of squares in your checked cowboy shirt. You then lose count and realize you are happy just wearing the damn thing.
5. You look up at the ceiling and try following a single wing of the fan when it is on full speed. After 5 seconds you give up and start wondering if there is anyone who could do that.
6. You keep asking questions about the first five points to your younger brother/sister again and again when it is obvious he/she doesn’t want to answer.
7. You sit and try to figure out whether the red mark on your arm is a pimple or a bug bite.
8. You look up at the sky and wonder why there are no stars and then remember its day.
9. You go to sleep at night look up at the stars and think to yourself…where the hell is my roof?! And then you remember you are sleeping on the terrace.
10. You start giving miss calls to everyone in your phone book.
11. You start turning to your younger brother for advice.
12. You start writing stuff like this.
13. And then forward it to the world.
14. You read through the whole article and laugh at your computer like a maniac…
15. And then start wondering whether you are crazy after all.

I Wish

I wish I could have said goodbye

I wish I could have said I love you

I wish I could have said sorry

I wish I could have hugged you one last time

It’s not something I could help

It’s not something I could have stopped

But,

I wish I could have been with you that

One night you had to spend all alone

I am sure you are happy

I am sure you are at peace

But I wish I could have danced with you

In the rain one last time

I miss you

And even a perfect rainbow seems dull without you.

But I know you are watching over me

And so I know I will be fine

But you will always be in my heart

And never gone.

Last wednesday my aunt expired. This is for her. I miss you faiba:(

Where is the love?

Where is the love?
That is suppossed to exist in this world
All i see is jealousy and hurt
In people's eyes
I know there is something wrong
Something terribly wrong that is going on
But all i can do is sit and watch
For a miracle to happen
That would change everything
For miracles appear i know
But i havent seen them show

Where is the love?
That is supposed to keep people happy
All I see are dead souls floating around
Desperately looking for a life
Making me think that the spirits have flown
Out of the world

Mother please help us
Send some guidance from above
Where is the miracle that we all need?
Where is the love?

This is the poem i had written after the Mumbai shooting on Nov 11 2008...I dedicate it all the people who lost their loved ones.God be with them.

Girls Just Wanna Have Fun!!!

A couple of days back I went to Villagio(on a suppossed to be girl's night) with my besties..:D and we had fun.It was basically to bid adieu to my very very good friend J.D..I may not see her again for a long time and i miss her terribly right now..there is just so much common between us..we are both confused ppl ....both slow....and basically just crazy..;)..good times..

Right so villagio..well it was a fun day ...not so fun for me though ....i have no idea what i was thinking when i got dressed that morning....your typical girl top with heels...high cowboy heels...in the first 15 minutes of me stepping into villagio my feet were killing me...it was terrible but i couldn't exactly walk around with bare feet could I..well ok i could but i wanted to keep my pride intact...:D:D..so it started out with me being there on time and everyone else coming late...perfect start right??yup...i agree too!JD wanted to recharge her mobile balance so we were standing at the counter waiting for the woman to give the damn card...how long does it take??10 secs??but no...she had to be long enough for A to get lost inside the damn supermarket...(p.s. she actually said she wanted to sneak in for a minute...but wasnt found until 10 minutes later...)..well i guess slow customers...slow service....:D:D

So then after she is found out and we have roamed around a little (and my feet have started to kill me to my slow death) we go to the coffee shop where ( god bless!) i can sit down and rest my poor feet...(.well it wasnt all that bad actually i'm just exaggerating ... a bit..).We are sitting there being girly and having fun when we find out R isnt cming and K is goin to be late....just what we needed...more good news...how better could life get??But hey atleast we were somewhere instead of wandering around like aimless ppl...speaking of which we had such a had time deciding where to meet....man do i want to just die sometimes....taking dem with me of course

So then K comes and we both argue about what to get JD...K wanted to get her shoes but well she thought i had already given dem to her.. so i was the victim of her unwanted wrath...so NOT neccesary...you wouldnt want to be on the receiving end of it lemme tell you..because i was and i havent been myself since then...atleast not in front of her...so then she makes me run around the whole mall a couple of times before she decides on a shop that was in front of us in the first place!!So then i decide to break the big news to her....there were going to be men coming to our ladies night.....i decide to do it subtly
Me: "So you know i was talking to S today morning and he was asking me what I was doing today..."
K(giving me her devil look): "And what did you tell him..??"
Me: " Nothing that I'm going to be in villagio with my friends....only us girls.."(the last part was a lie I hadnt mentioned a thing to the poor guy about this but she didnt have to knw that)
K(the devil look getting meaner :"And what did he say.....??"
Me:"Nothing...So if you see them around...I DID NOT CALL THEM"

Yup...that was very subtle..well as expected she saw right through me but by then I had already won and she lost so there was no point in arguing...

Right so the guys they did come around...not for long though..like stayed for 15 mins and left...i have a feeling K was giving them that signature devil look of hers so they kind of figured it all out and left...which was such a bad thing because i like spending time with them..atleast they have kind eyes...:D:D...I am exaggerating again..actually K is a very sweet girl and she has great eyes..but she can sometimes give you the dont-mess-with-me look that personally gives me the creeps...no offense....
Ha ha....the only thing after that is we go get our dinner then have to rush home before we get grounded..well we were past our curfew nyways but we weren't grounded....

That was the last time i had met JD and how i wish i could meet her again..Its been only 4 days and i miss her so much..there isn't anyone else I can really connect to though i still have great friends...


Well that was that...all in all a fun day ...though R didnt come and i missed her.....she would have understood my torture...and meeting A was fun too....cant wait to see them all again!!

what would life be like without friends...

"Sometimes life breaks in mysterious ways...." - Brian Mcfadden

It sure does and this isnt just about all the serious stuff ... all the weird and the funny stuff too.
Take for example this weird incident happened to me today...i was out for lunch with my family and one of my besties called me..i come back and i see the red blinking light on my phone that says you have a miss call...so i see her number and i call her back. The first thing she says is "God there are a gazillion calls today..". I calmly tell her i didnt want to disturb her but i saw her miss call and i was wondering if something important had come up...Now this is the weird part..
Friend: "umm...Aditi..i didn't call you..."
Me: "...huh??"
Friend: "I did not call you..."
Me: " ...Honey..you called me ....remember...??"
Friend: "...umm.. i do i did not call you....are you sure its my number..."
Me:"Yes very much (narrating no..)dis is your no right??"
Friend(sounding unsure ):"yes...but....i didnt call you..."
Me(getting irritated):"Fine i'm sorry i saw the red blinking light...sori my phone showed your number..sori it said you have given me a call ....just sori....Bye"
Friend(sounding freaked out):Okay!Bye!

Whoever was that i guess we will never know...Or maybe she is just suffering from short-term memory loss....I did suggest she go see a doctor before it got too serious...but she wouldnt listen..according to her she's completely fine....I'm not too sure though....

Another thing happened.....and this is just plain annoying..

You know there are these people who are moody and change moods so fast you just want to jump out for your life....after strangling them of course..
Well i just became friends with these incredible nice guy who just happens to be moody...a lot.And you just cant keep up with all his moods and its a shame cos well....he is a nice guy ...
So we are chatting online...well about the regular stuff you know...and then suddenly before i know it we are in the middle of this serious topic...which btw gets awkward to me...so i say something light-hearted thinking it might lighten up the mood....and what i get is a grumpy friend who is mad at me for spoiling the mood....and a temper ever since then (which has been around 24 hours..)...Well i am sorry for spoiling your mood...but i was trying to improve my own....I try explaining this but the only thing i get is a "leave it..." and a "Let's change the topic..."
It is maddening...cos i've been given the cold shoulder since then..well i guess two can play the game...or maybe he just hasn't come to his senses..whatever the reason may be the thing is i've been nursing the temper around since the incident and finally decide to take it all out on him...so i call a couple of my friends to get the contact no....and take it all out on them instead..i got freaked after i was done with it but all they said was .."It's funny the way you get angry...". I guess i am honoured to be so entertaining for my friends...

Life sure breaks in mysterious ways....but sometimes i just wish it would all straighten out..but however my friends may be and however weird and irritating they act sometimes(p.s. read always) they make my life so much more interesting and enjoyable...i love them all..so thank you all so much you guys...
p.s.(to my besties) the above written incidents are in NO WAY related to you...:D:D
well just remember i love ya...:D

Help.I am being attacked.

Okay so i am tired...tired doesn't even begin to cover it..Its 11 a.m in the morning and i haven't slept the whole night so i think maybe ill go to sleep for a bit....i guess i am not destined to...my mobile starts ringing...RRRING...RRRING...RRRING...i want to pick it up but its all the way across the room..aww man...so i decide to let it ring...RRRING...RRRING....i want to cut it off...i want to yell at the caller to give me some peace but i cant do either of that so i just put the pillow over my head hoping the caller will soon give up ...RRRING...RRRING...i guess the caller wants to make sure that i am REALLY sleeping so he doesnt give up...after a few seconds..Peace..Silence.Done.I win. Okay i'm good now. A few more minutes pass in blissful silence when my cell starts announcing a new message...as i lie in bed i start cursing myself for putting such a stupid tone to my incoming messages it just wont stop...I guess i just have to wait it out...stop ringing already...nope..nada...it keeps ringing....and then i promise myself that the next time im going to turn everything off...even get myself a sound-proof bedroom...but right now i cannot ignore the ringing phone...well i guess we can all guess how it all turned out since i am here posting a new blog...I'm tired...I guess I'll sleep...not taking any chances...Maybe ill wear ear muffs....